February 2012
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Lock the Door (Written by Jenisis Samoranos)
Verse I For so long… It’s been wrong And we’ve lost the feeling With each other Fussin & fightin with One another I am not a record You can’t keep playin me Spinnin me ‘round in circles, Oh no I can’t take it no more… Pre-Hook I’ve gotta carry on I need to move on I’ve gotta stay strong Well, I’ve been puttin up with yo sh*t for too...
January 2012
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My Results from an Online Personality...
Self-Confidence
As someone with high self-confidence, you feel quite comfortable interacting with other people. Indeed, you find the company of others very stimulating and enjoy meeting new people. Your relaxed demeanor in groups makes people around you comfortable too. Perhaps because you feel comfortable talking about yourself, others tend to enjoy being around you and perceive you as...
October 2011
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“I don’t care what you think about me. I don’t think about you AT...”
– Coco Chanel
September 2011
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“I don’t fall in Love… I fall in FUN!!!”
– Jenisis
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Giving Back...
Today, I dedicate my volunteering services to my father… I miss him very much… Last week, I helped to prepare and serve meals for the needy. It was such a humbling yet rewarding experience. It’s amazing to think how blessed we really are. There are people out there who are struggling just to find something to eat… Struggling to live… I almost had to hold back my...
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August 2011
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Rehab. Intervention. DETOX.
Las Vegas. San Diego. San Jose. I’m not talking about Pool Parties here. What I’m saying is that my liver’s been thru a lot of damage in those cities this past MONTH alone.
For the longest time I’ve felt tired. Exhausted. Icky inside. I’ve been seriously wanting to detox. The excessive drinking and partying has got to stop.
So, I decided to try a 10 Day Detox and...
July 2011
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God's Plan...
I gotta admit… 2011 is turning out to be one very interesting year for me. A lot of highs and a lot of lows… Half the year has already gone by and at this very moment in my life, I feel like I’m at peace. I’m not 100% there yet, but I’m getting by. I’m no longer angry, bitter or shedding tears. For this, I am proud of myself.
I’m so thankful for the...
Love...
This past weekend is just what I needed. I’m ready to live again. I’m ready to LOVE again. It’s funny how life works out sometimes. Guess you gotta hit rock bottom first to really appreciate the climb to the top. :) GOD is great!!!
“I never get jealous when I see my ex with someone else, because my parents...”
June 2011
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Me singing and playing the piano - “Talking...
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Blogging, venting, breathing, accepting...
I just reread a blog I wrote the other day. Having spent 6 days in Paris, I feel different already. I’ve experienced so much within the past few days that I can’t even connect with the blog entry anymore. I actually sat back and laughed at what I had written. Ahh, I guess that’s the beauty of blogging. You get things off your mind… You look back on what you’ve...
Lose myself, to find myself...
In 2 more days, I’ll be on a plane headed overseas to Paris, France.
I really need this trip. I’ve been so consumed with sadness, pain, confusion and heartache. I need to get away and really lose myself in order to find myself again. The world is so immense. Sometimes it’s easy to forget how big the world really is. We get so caught up in our daily lives, our relationships...
“If someone tries to make you upset. Give them the finger. Not the middle…...”
– Book of Jenisis
May 2011
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Upgrade...
I’m excited to go to church today. I want to pray for the happiness of others and of course for myself. I want to ask God to help me fill this emptiness in my heart so I can be a better woman and live a happier, healthier life. I’ve been wallowing in sorrow far too long and keep straying off the path I was meant to travel. No more bullshitting. Jen Version 2.0 begins now.
One month...
My heart still aches. A little piece of me is gone. I try to fill the love-shaped hole with temporary happiness… But once it drains out of my system, the pain still stabs at my soul. I wish things were different.
If I’m not exhausted or drained, I’m full of anxiety and restlessness. I want to go back to some form of normalcy so I can breathe again. I just need to feel at peace....
April 2011
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Where did she go?
I was reading some old blogs this girl wrote. She seemed so positive and had a great passion for life. I used to know her really well, but I dont know where she’s disappeared to. I’m on a mission to find her again. She was a happy person. I want to be like her. Her name is Jenisis Samoranos.
I think we spend too much time wondering why we’re...
tumblrbot asked: WHAT IS YOUR EARLIEST HUMAN MEMORY?
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Fast Forward...
Time travel. Years later. Futuristic love-hater. Step into a twilight zone. A different world. I’m the creator.
Seasons change. People grow. Familiarity is all we know. Take a risk or just sit back. The comfort makes life seem so slow.
Fast forward. Stop. Rewind. Repeat but leave the past behind. Start anew. Erase. Clean slate. Maybe then, some peace of mind.
Robots anchored. Distilled...
February 2011
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Sometimes you just need to distance yourself from...
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Goodbye Expectations...
It’s amazing how much different life can be when you throw all of your expectations out the door. There’s less disappointment, no hopes are being crushed and every little GOOD incident becomes a HUGE and lovely surprise.
I used to worry all the time. My mind became obsessed with disturbing thoughts and threatening insecurities. I used to ask my significant other, “how do you do...
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“The best feeling in the world comes when you start feeling good again after...”
– Oprah Winfrey (via yanilavigne)
January 2011
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Your Ego vs. WWJD
When you witness someone perform an outstanding achievement, your ego wants you to feel envy and jealousy, but God wants you to show admiration and appreciation.
When you see a person on the street that is in shambles and unkept, your ego wants you to feel disdain, but God wants you to have compassion for that person.
When someone behaves in a manner that you feel is rude to you or lacking...
The secret to happiness is to do what you like.The...
Fashion that never goes outta style...
A Great Attitude and a Smile - two ways to enhance your look without ever changing your wardrobe!
“Too blessed to be stressed!”
"What do you want to be when you grow up?"
While having lunch with my family today, I asked my 5 nieces that infamous question, “What do you want to be when you grow up?”….
It’s interesting the kinds of answers you get from various ages… lol.
ME: What do you want to be when you grow up?
Jaqcui (12 yrs) - I want to be a dentist!
Vivienne (10 yrs) - I want to be a pediatrician!
“Koki” (7 yrs) -...
Sunday kind of love...
Sunday is starting to become my favorite day. It is the end of one week and the beginning of a brand new one. It allows me to look back on the previous 6 days and reflect on what I’ve been through, what I’ve learned, what I should and shouldn’t have done and what it is I’ve been wanting to achieve.
Sunday is also a new starting point for the week that lies ahead. I can...
“Sacrifice is giving up something good for something better.”
– Unknown (via littlemiss)
Warriors...
As of yesterday, I felt a little swing back into normalcy. I don’t feel quite 100% there yet, but things ran smoothly and just felt right. Laughter was present as well as celebration. Last night we checked into the Warriors game and came out of Oracle as winners. They went head to head against the Pacers; it was a real close game but the Warriors ended up victorious. I’m hoping there...
Reminder...
When things start flying into left-field… Stick to what’s RIGHT.
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How low can you go...
Awareness of uncertainties. Gray matter confined. Each day the same difference. Persistent non-existence Restrain me from my mind.
Limbo.
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Stabbed...
Guilt and shame in a puddle of blood Stainless steel won’t clean with mud Wounded. Battered. Scarred and Bruised Two hearts sliced open. Two minds confused.
The day I was stabbed, I almost died I longed for the truth, he may have lied Twisted. Broken. Sacredness tainted. Tears destroyed the picture we painted.
Time can heal and subside the pain There can’t be rainbows without the...
Falling again...
Just when I thought I had reached the top, I get sucked in and pulled back down again. I try to stay strong and happy but my emotions seem to get the best of me. Why do I do this to myself? I need to be stronger. I can’t climb to the top with this added weight holding me down. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m running out of energy. I’m exhausted. All I wanted was...
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Bite of reality...
“When a guy is in love with you, he can’t get enough of you. He will be eager to call you, see you, spend time with you. A person in love genuinely wants to know your thoughts. He becomes more animated in your presence. A man in love does not play games or wait to call you. He will just need you.”
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Teeter-totter...
He makes me happy. He makes me sad. He says he loves me. He says he’s mad. He calls me his “love” He texts me “good night” He can’t talk about “us” He just wants to fight He’s figuring things out He’s not sure what to do He says I am missed He says “screw you” He plays with my mind He makes me his token He fills up my heart But he just leaves it broken.
Dum dee dum dee dum…